I AM A MUGGER.

Why is it still raining.

Why did KFC have to go add that 3 dollars surcharge.

Why meepok plus korean seaweed = eww.

Why am i stuck at equlibrium.

Rarr.

爱

我不知道那算不算爱 因为曾经爱过
爱应该是心跳加速 满脸涨红 不知所措 不敢靠近却又想要触碰
但是今天 我感受到肯定中的不肯定
我以为是心平静气 坦然以对 忽冷忽热 安静舒服又好像亲情
原来
可以在拥挤的车上想念依靠的手臂
可以在肚子饿时不想吃太多
可以一个人走在路上，思考着爱的意义
可以知道目的地在哪里，却又魂不守舍
可以想到没有人陪时，喉咙干的像咽着
也许
我也有心跳加速的时候
我也有不知所措的时候
我也有害怕面对却又想要见面的时候
我也会在最脆弱的时候，想要坚强

是时候向自己承认，这真的是爱。

I don't like homework.

Derrick Ho's album is nice!
I actually think it's better than Jam's.

The teachers really think having an extra day of break means we can finish 2.5 papers of H3 Chem, 4 chem prelim qns, 8 full pages of bio revision pre-lecture, plus revise for a CLL test. All that to be due either on tues or wed-.-Oh, and i finished my part for a GP presentation yest too. I'm looking on the bright side, I'll be quite free for revision after wed...no. Still haven't done that bio applications tutorial. Argh.

Babies!

I didn't know babies could get jealous. I thought they only appeared in those parenting books where they tell you to spread your attention equally to both babies.

Steffie should be very used to being the Almighty at grandma's house where she gets the attention of everybody there and there are always people for her to bully around. So when baby Germaine came she was so possessive of her property that she followed baby Germaine around to make sure she doesn't touch anyone. Super funny. When baby Germaine walked into a room where Steffie's playmate(a girl renting the room) stays, Steffie got up and followed and made a lot of noise. And baby Germaine couldn't care less, so she walked out, tightly followed by Steffie who was very afraid baby Germaine would go to the maid who was sitting outside. Steffie adores the maid, you see. This cycle must have repeated itself for at least 10 times, with Steffie always getting to the maid first and making a lot of noise. Haha. We were like teasing her, "快点妹妹来了哦". Such a cute scene!

And once they walked to just in front of me and i saw Steffie thrusting a spectacle box into baby Germaine's arms, and i thought that was quite nice, giving her something to play with. Turned out that Steffie has a handphone to play with already and the box was something she didn't want-.-Babies ah, the way they think is quite interesting.

I don't wanna grow up!

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I haven't really like had a heart-to-heart talk with my dad for quite long. Usually it's those nights he fetches me home when im out late. But yesterday while waiting for my mum to redeem her slow cooker, he told me "以后你生活上，还是哪里碰到什么问题，要跟爸爸妈妈讲”...he doesn't talk much, he usually secretly asks my mum how im doing, but i know no matter what happens, my dad will always be there for me. Like how he will purposely stay out late just to fetch me home though he's super tired, like how he lets me grab his sleeve when walking and sleep on his tummy when watching tv, like how i snuggle beside him on his mattress when i have a nightmare..haha. I want to relieve him of his breadwinner job very soon=) Jiayou anita.

Motivation

He got me thinking too.

I don't know what i really want at the end of it all. I realised it's all just blindly working, working very hard so i don't have to think too much. 'cause good grades can get you anywhere. Good grades get you scholarships that can send you to prestigious schools which i can never afford too. Good grades get you into whatever course of study you want, and good grades make people look differently at you. So that's why im working so hard, or rather, why im gonna work very hard. It's for myself, but more for my parents, my relatives, my loved ones, for having so much faith in me.

Though i feel there's only a thin line between faith and pressure. No matter, I work well under pressure.

梦想夹带眼泪 咸咸的汗水
你我同个世界 爱从中穿越
梦与希望在飞 我向前去追
有目标就不累 等着我超越

远远抛开一切 过千山万水

I want to blog. But i don't know what to blog about. I think my life is quite normal.

Or is it 'cause i think that everything happening around me is normal?

I saw a couple sitting on the topmost floor of our carpark, it's very exposed, considering that it's flanked by 3 blocks of flats. I thought the girl was hurt 'cause the guy was bending over her, but they didn't show any signs of getting up. Mum was super ba gua, she kept saying they are doing illegal stuff. Then my neighbour came and saw them too, and she thought the girl fell down or something. Weird that she should come all the way up and fall. Oh well. I thought their positions were pretty awkward.

I saw cute little hamsters at lot1. The two little things were trying to run on the wheel at the same time, in the same direction but one on top of the other. Haha. Reminds me of the time when my hamsters ran on the wheel, but in different directions-.-they just slid down each side and the wheel didnt move at all. Super funny!

High school side food is nice. Haha. I really like that travelator idea, how good if it would be implemented!

I'm so not gonna play psp on bus ever again. It makes me all giddy and nauseous especially with this Agent Clank game which makes u scroll 360 degrees to fight off all those robots. I feel uncomfy.

There was this pair of brothers on our bus home who were quarreling from the time they got on the bus, got off and changed bus, down the feeder service bus and all the way till they got to my void deck. Stopped only when they fell over each other after they ran quite a bit. Boys are sure a handful. And quite funny, the younger brother just went off and hid somewhere, leaving the other boy there on the floor. Just reminds me of the days when i played with my cousins, and when things go wrong we do exactly that. Pointing fingers and running away so we don't take the blame. Haha.

Shing says he's not gonna come online during weekends, and no more maple. I shall see if he keeps by that. I of course will still come and listen to music=) Mugging period ftw!