不能说的秘密=) Lots of interesting things happening lately, making butterflies, Harry Potter's final book, and Jay's long-awaited movie! I can't wait!=)

I've finally completed my EoM! Oh man. Just look at the time now. I've been staying up later than ever 'cause of this thingy. I must catch up a lot on my sleep, I keep dozing off lately!

Ahh and of course Bio results were a mess. Yes im above average with my S grade, but its still sad. BUT this will not hamper me in any way, it'll just motivate me to study harder for the lecture test coming up real soon. Haha. Talking about studying, I think i was supposed to read a CLL text for tmr but heh, i'll prob fall asleep within a second if i read it. I shall leave everything for tmr then. Completing EoM is the shuang-est thing already=)

I get emo so easily these days, and I think I know why. In the middle of the night, sitting in front of the comp thinking about a lot of things. Bits and pieces of ideas flash past my mind, I don't know if they're right or wrong, is it true or I'm just being irrational and emotional. The comp screen stares back at me, messages are being sent, and I can't do anything. I feel wet, the screen looks blur, I can't look away. I try to organize my thoughts, but it goes running everywhere. You are not the only one hurting. I'm sorry, this is no time for me to wallow in self-pity, it just hurts so much inside when you've gone so far away I can't feel you. Why do I have to be the last to know everything? Why do I feel so alone? Why do I feel like if he's not around, my whole world will just crumble? It's so insecure, I've been too protected all these while. I need to salvage this whole thing before it's too late. You've lost trust, I'll gain it back. But please, you all have to let me do so. Don't push me away, I've fallen, its painful.

I have to grow up, life's not so simple now. No time for those stupid helpless feelings, no place for that dumb desperate feeling to come all over me again. It really doesn't work this way does it.

BP opera!

ALRIGHT BPIANS NOW'S THE TIME TO GET TOGETHER AND SUPPORT OUR DEAR OPERA AND MEET UP WITH OLD FRIENDS=)
28th july, 8.00pm, NUS cultural centre. Contact BP for more details. Or tell me, i can help order tickets.

Woohoo DANCE just makes me feel so good and happy. I had to sneak out of LEP for that little while of happiness haha, though there were so many ppl they probably didn't notice. Now dancing feels even better when i've gotten the moves down in my heart already. Last choreo to go, I shall work harder!

2nd day at our NEW ASIAN COOKING! We did banana muffins plus apple tarts today, they were really nice. But they were really too little for lunch can, i was practically hungry the whole day. RARR.
The rose i made with tomato skin and the leaves carved from green apple. Don't they look very nice? Haha i did cheat a bit by putting the rose together with several pieces instead of one whole long one. But hehheh it still looks good eh?=)

Our muffins n apple tarts for lunch! Oh man ours was super nice~



Did u see there were so many crawling thingies in that spice garden that we were made to tour twice! Eeyer. And mum's calling me to go eat durians that dad brought home. Nice fragrance~ *Rushes off*

Today was sabbacs day! and off i went to FORT CANNING to learn how to do New Asian Cooking from this Thai chef. Hehheh the best part about this is we get to eat what we've done for lunch! and mind you it's not bad at all. The chicken was really tasty, haven't eaten something like that for a long time=) I think im lucky to get this course.

Thats some spice art thingy that each group is supposed to do. What do u think it looks like? It's really up to ur interpretation. But apparently our group defined it as a dragon. Hmm.

Doesn't this totally look like we're at some high-class restaurant having fine dining? Ohh and we learnt napkin folding too! Quite a few types, how cool~

And these are the spring rolls we did! Don't they look absolutely pretty? Well but they don't exactly taste nice, with all those weird leaves we put into our rolls, but it goes quite well with some special sauce the chef made. Woohoo.

Our materials before they were put into our spring rolls. I hehheh had fun getting the skin+flesh off cucumber and mango 'cause im not very good at using the knife.



Herbs at the spice garden.

And me and shiyun were emo-ing for a bit at the classroom window. The whole classroom was white ah, very good place to emo.

And did u see that?! I must be very ill-informed but i've never seen such a thing, letting down a pole to let a car pass then pulling it up again to close off the place. The guards must be busy doing that in a whole day lar. Xin ku ta men le.

One more day of cooking tmr! And dance is gng to be a bit pia now, but im sure having fun=) Imba mad!

Wahaha yest was like the eat-good-food day=) i totally felt very pampered can. In the morn we went to this house in bukit panjang to have a look, and boy it does look quite okay, plus its so convenient to go to town from there. hehheh thats not the point BUT the valuation is SOooo cheap that its kinda stupid to not grab it. It's just that the house needs a LOT of renovation to be done. Nowhere near our kinda standard. AND the main point is its very near this series of hawker centres which sell very good food. OMG. The hokkien mee plus carrot cake plus kway teow super nice! I practically gobbled down everything 'cause i was SOoooo hungry. Oh man.

and since the maid over at grandma's house is away on a break, we decided to eat out for dinner. We went to this super nice restaurant somewhere is tuas and WOAH. I've nv eaten food like that in a long time. The prawns were so fresh, and the crab legs were so big and solid that it felt so nice to sink my teeth into it. Woohoo! I totally enjoyed my dinner yest. Just that the bill was equally 'enjoyable'---whooping 200 plus bucks. For 8 ppl which is actually quite alright. Hehheh. I feel quite xing fu now thinking about it=) Aww boy xin ku ni le.

And Steffie was throwing tantrums yest! She cried whenever somebody not her mum carried her. Gahh. Then when we said we're going off she stopped crying. Tsk Tsk. Clever girl ah, learning to chase us away alr. Jialat eh.